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isnt it strange that even if your confidence is through the roof it doesnt take much to make it small again? that you work so hard for something and it dissapers? i know how that feels but even if my confidence is low i try to belive in my self i repeat to my self thats its ok because it really is most of the time what we think is huge actually is so small that once its over you just wanna laugh. if we carry our confidence even a small amount, and never give up we will make it once we make it it will only make us stronger. when i was in grade school me and a friend of mine had a fight people picked sides and i thought it was the end of the world, i wanted to b liked, even though roumers stared and some of my friends left me i still carried a small amount of confidence and when the fight ended my confidence grew each time i got hurt i strenghtend my confidence no longer am i as sensitive as i used to be. some people may try a sport and because they feel discuraged give up. ive been trying to learn kip ups or kick ups whatever u wanna call them (this marcial arts move were your on the floor and jump up to your feet) my brother learned it on the fist try its only been a few days but each time i get better i work hard to learn it and i have no intention on quitting the fact that i dont get it right maked me frustrated and keep trying until i cant breat than the next day i try again, im really stubborn and i never quit unless i have a good reson like i broke my leg or im sick that day. my mom always says that ill always have at lest one friend who will have my back no matter what happend she says its "love me the way i am or leave it" i agree i am me if you dont like it than leave there is always a person who likes you for you

my mom is the best shes my best friend! whatever happens she there for me and gives the best advice after like 5minutins she can already boost my self esteem very high love my mom!

sadly i didnt get transfered, im so sick of every one there but i plan to keep my head up high just live that school year for me. it wont be easy since i have low confidence its not low its just sensitive but over the summer iv gained courage did things i never though i would in my entire life and im proud, i know its hard to do anything when your heat if filled with hate stress worry fear. but all my life ive been trying to lock out thoughs emotions i know i need them but  and locking them out wasn't a good idea i now plan to embrace them and im ready for whatever life throughs at me...kinda

my freind wasnt really a friend i dont even know why i hung out with her i had lots of other friends but i guess i felt bad for her she moved and i know its tough she was always so mean to me i thought it was cuz she was just upset about the move a year later she still teated me like shit and i took it all in and no matter what she said i would be kind to her and help her because every one deserves help no matter who you are i was her only friend she didnt want any one else she blamed me constantly and was rude i sucked it but during that year i got sick of her and stated to hang out with my friends agian she would get mad deep down i had enough of her and wished she would leave me alone i wanted to go to a differnt school because even if i stoped being her friend i would still have to look at her so a year and a half later she was making fun of my brother that did it she could make fun of me all she wanted but not my younger brother so i punched in the face just out of reaction all the things i was holding back all that time it felt good now i finally had an excuse to leave the school all the other times i couldnt but now my mom wants to transfer me im fine with it im glad i just feel sorry with who ever is stuck with her next we will go to my school first and ask if they can transfer me but i think its our choice if my mom wants to transfer me they have to honour her wishes right? ill be going to my school in a few days to ask to transfer im really happy ill finally get to start new. at the school i would be transfering to i have friends true friends that i knew for a long time and were really close. i was always sick of the way that girl treated me and the school and i cant wait to get out. i never really liked my school but the school i want to transfer to is so much better at lunch i would some times visit my freinds there and i know the area well i know some of the students most of them are really nice. i cant wait to start over my wish finally can true and i wont screw up this time. ive learnt ive grown i may hate that girl but ive only grown at a person looking at her it made me want to fix my flaws and help her become better but i ran out of options and i want to do someting for me join my true friends go to a new and better school im so much happyier just hopeing im aloud to transfer!

i feel lonley. i  trust no one from passed experiences. i find my self unworthy. only one person is mean to me and thats my best friend. i dont understand y. when i hang out with my other friends (who are guys) she gets mad at me. if im busy that day or dont feel like goingany were she gets mad she makes her life seem more important than others ( good thing my guy friends spit and throw stuff at her. they hate her and i didn't say any thing) she says shes a loner and gets mad when i hang out with all the cliques ( i dont belong to one just friends whith evry one) if i cant go some were she says i like to be grounded and that im a pathetic loser. i dont understand why i still hang around her. maybe im scared to leave if i do she might tell my secrets. or that im waiting for the fun times....what should i do?

every one knows that at school their are cliques...but why? thank god i dont belong to one im friends with every one. cliques prevent you from getting to know people and trying new things

my dad is a drunk. he hits us. but resently he devorsed my mom it was by force. he now is with some other lady. he refuses to pay alimony and my mom is out of a job because of the ressesion. we're lossing money fast...if it gets worse we might have to move in with my family(grandparents)...they are all in another country what should i do?

i have a friend. i do every thing for her beacuse i hate it when she gets mad. when she gets in troyble for forgetting to take down the dog its the end of the world. but when i tell her my dad got drunk and hit me she says suck it up. she can be fun...some times... but other times i really just wanna cry i could leave her but if i did dhe would turn my friends against me because she has non....whats a girl to do?